People grow apart and that's okay

I've always thought of friendship as something unbreakable. For me true friendship was a bond that lasts a lifetime. A friend is someone with whom you share your experience, your pain and happiness, your darkest secrets and whatever else comes along. 

However, what I didn't realise for a long time is that sometimes people grow apart and that that's okay.

Each and everyone of us develops their personal interests during growing up and sometimes it can happen that your interests are so different from your friend's that this whole friendship thing doesn't work for the two of you anymore. 

Personally, it took me a lot of time to comprehend this and come to the realisation that loosing a good friend is something we all have to deal with at some point in our lives. Because I was in denial that my friend and I weren't what we used to be, I kept holding on to the friendship for longer than I should have. It felt like I kept trying to breath even though I was about hundred feet under the water already.

Then once our friendship was over it was that much harder for me to deal with that. I kept hoping that maybe it's just another meaningless quarrel, something we could get over, but I didn't have the will to keep fighting and that should have been my clue. I should have understood that it was better for me that the we weren't as close as we used to be because at least back then we were still talking.

I think that when someone has been in your life for such a long time it's like losing a family when things come to an end, but there is a quote that I like to repeat to myself whenever I feel like maybe things shouldn't have worked out like this. The quote goes something like: "When someone causes more tears than smiles, no matter how much you love them, it's time to let them go."

This whole post have been one long mess, so unorganised, but it something I wanted to get out for a long time. I think that now I am finally ready to admit this and write it all down. Losing a friend is something that isn't easy to deal with, but sooner you realise that there's nothing to feel guilty about, that sometimes people just grow apart and that it's nobody's fault, the better things will go for you from that point forward.

I feel like I've grown so much since that event. I've made so many good friends along the way and I am happier than I have ever been, so I really can't complain about how things have worked out for me.