Why I decided not to blog in June

It feels good to be back.

Writing, editing, searching for photos to complete my post.

It's been more than a month since my last post, but I cannot say I regret it. I needed some time off and not writing a blog in the meantime seemed like a good idea.

And it was a good idea.

While having my little break from a blog I noticed that I genuinely enjoyed things I was doing. In my humble opining, once you have a blog and decide to write regularly it quickly takes over your life. Every week you search for new, interesting things to write about. It pushes you to go out more, to experience different things and then discuss them here.

However, I found myself worrying about how to turn what I was experiencing into a good blog post instead of actually being there, enjoying what I was doing and putting my heart into it.

At first I thought that maybe I was the only one experiencing this, and maybe I am, but I've been reading this book about a successful bloger and her entire life revolves around blog posts. Everything she does is for the sake of her blog and I don't want to be that person.

This month and a half was a blessing for me. I worked as a rollerblading instructor, I was at the seaside for almost three weeks, I meet new people, I learned new card game and I've been completely present at all these things without thinking how to turn them into a blog post.

I hope you can forgive me for not writing for such a long time, but anyway I don't regret my decision to push this blog aside for a while.

Short, but sweet

I keep re-writing this post, because I want to put something new on my blog for you to read, but I really can't find a topic to discuss today.

The truth is, I am tired. 

It feels like there is no free time for me lately. I am constantly rushing somewhere, and when I am not, I collapse on a bad, getting my well deserved nap. 

So, I though to myself, if I can't find a topic to write about why not just write something positive for you guys to read, and maybe, just maybe, I manage to lighten up your day. 

No matter what you are going through remember that you are a strong person and you can and must keep on fighting. No matter with who you got into a fight today, remember there's a new day tomorrow and you can sleep it off and work things out latter. No matter how small and unimportant you feel, remember that there is someone who smiles everyday when you walk pass them. And that might be the most important part of their day. 

I want you to know that just by reading this you are guilty for that stupid grin on my face, because you are making me feel like I am not unimportant, and small, and that someone out there is listening to what I have to say.

5 reasons why winter is better than summer

I know a lot of you will fight me on this one, but I stand behind a statement that winter is better than summer. Since summer is starting, and because it's already so hot here, in Slovenia, I just have to go on a rant about it and how much I miss the coldness, snow and dark.

So buckle up and enjoy the ride, my fellow readers!

Clothes. I love layers. I love a good old t-shirt with a cardigan and a warm cosy jacket on top. I love black jeans and warm fluffy socks. But when it's hot like hell outside, you can't really put on layers like you are able to do in the winter. It just seems like summer clothes aren't as cosy as the winter ones. Then again maybe it's not the clothes. Maybe it's the burning heat that makes you sweat like a pig. Which bring me to another point.

Sweating. What's up with that? I could stand in the shower all day long during summer. But still as soon as I stepped up, I'd be covered with sweat. Because it's so bloody hot during summer and you can't cool yourself down for more than an hour (or even less). I hate not being able to do anything about it. At least in the winter when you are cold, you can put on another sweater or tights under your pants. What are you going to do in summer? Rip you skin away from your body?

Productivity. You know how some people say: "You can be more productive during summer and you have more energy because the day is longer." This is absolute crap. The only time during summer that is bearable to do something is early in the morning or late in the evening. Otherwise you are putting yourself in danger because of how hot is it outside. Want to go for a walk during a day? Oh no, you can't because you might get sunstroke. So, good luck to you folks, who are planning to be productive during summer.

Dog. Do you know how much fun my dog has during summer? About 20%. His happiness comes from swimming in the sea, but otherwise it's absolute nightmare for him. He is constantly hot, with his tongue out and wants to be pet, but at the same time doesn't. Besides it's hard to take him for a walk in the heat, so I can only take him for a longer walk in the evening, because neither him or I are a big far of getting up in the morning.

The only place I like during summer

Sleeping. I have trouble sleeping anyway, but in the summer is so much worse because I can't get comfortable no matter what. If I sleep with a blanket I get to hot, but if I don't sleep with a blanket monsters can get me. Can you feel my struggle?

Now, that I got my frustrations out I can admit that there are also things to like forward to, for example going to the seaside, playing beach volleyball, sleeping under the stars, bonfires, pool parties, and most of all freedom because there's no school. 

If I were rich...

I think all of us had thought about having lots of money at one point. It doesn't matter whether is it while you are buying a lottery ticket or starting a new business or while you are shopping, we have all thought about it. 

The truth is we live in a very materialistic world and it's hard to escape that, but I believe that wishing you were richer doesn't mean you aren't generous or kind or hardworking. It's just that having lots of money could sometimes save you a lot of trouble. 

Now,  this post isn't supposed to be deep or a critic of a modern world. This post is a list of my ideas on how I'd spend money if I, for example, won a lottery. (And if I ever do win a lottery, I'll come back to this post and check every single idea off the list.)

1.  I would hire a personal driver to drive me around at night. You see, I mentioned before that I have trouble sleeping from time to time (about three night a week). However, when I am driving somewhere these problems do not exist for me. The roaring of an engine and landscape passing by, calm me down and I can fall asleep in a matter of seconds. 
2. I would take my friends on a trip for their birthday. I would probably take them somewhere for a weekend (like Paris or Amsterdam or New York) and make sure they have the best time, experience as much as possible and eat the most delicious food a country has to offer. 
3. I would go snowboarding. It's not that I don't snowboard now, but I just don't snowboard enough. If I were rich, I would be on slopes ever weekend, having the time of my life.
4. I would buy a house. That's probably a must do when you come into some money. I buy a big house, for all of my family to live in, with a big yard and a pool. Then in the house, I'd have a home cinema and a game room where all the electronics would be (like a proper geek paradise) and also a fitness room and so much more.
5. I would make someone's dream come true. I think if I knew someone that was just really unlucky in their life I would make sure to give them all their ever wanted and even more. 
6. I would found a charity organisation.  This charity organisation would built schools and neighbourhoods in places where people need it.
7. I would open a foster home. I think if I had money and an ability to give kids what they deserve and need, I would take in as many kids as I could. It's just one of those things I always wanted to do and I guess, if you have money why not do it. 
8. I wouldn't stress out about school and work. I always said that no matter what (a.k.a. winning the lottery) I would finish school and go to work, but I think a huge burden would be lifted off my shoulders if I knew my future and financial stability doesn't depend on it. 
9. I would take fans to conventions. If there was a show/movie I was obsessed with I would take people from the fanbase who couldn't afford going to the conventions. I think it would be such an amazing thing to do and also I'd get to spend time and get to know people from the internet with the same obsession.

That's about it. Of course there's a lot of things I'd buy as well, for example camera, new laptop... However, I didn't include those things in the list because there are always new products on the market and I am a sucker for new gadgets. 

What would you do if you suddenly got into a lot of money?

On the road

I've been gone for quite some time and I think it's time to catch up. Don't you agree?

I'm sure I've mentioned before how much I love to travel. My deepest passion is going to new places, exploring new things and staring in awe at what I discovered. So it's no surprise that I take every opportunity to go somewhere. 

Three weeks ago my aunt asked me if I wanted to go to the Netherlands with her, and of course I agreed. It was a quick decision and on Friday morning I was already flying towards the Netherlands. 

I've been to the Netherlands before, if you recall I wrote about an incident on the airport, but I haven't talked much about where I've been. 

The last time I was there I was on an exchange program in Leiden and I absolutely fell in love with it. 

Morning flight over the Alps

This time my aunt and I went to Hague, but also made a trip to Rotterdam, Amsterdam and Keukenhof. The last one is also know as the Garden of Europe and it absolutely beautiful, but also overcrowded. 

Tree with peace wishes on it stands in front of Peace Palace, in Hague

I'm sure it's needless to say I had a blast, and of course I took a bunch of photos, but right now I'm to lazy to upload and edit them. I'm sorry. 

When I came back, I had a week of holidays left which I basically spent going out with friends and having sleepovers.

Then last Saturday I went to Mirabilandia, which is an amusement park in Italy and to San Marino. I'm sure the trip would've been more than just okay, but I was starting to get sick, so the whole two days there were kind of miserable. 

I have to admit, the first day was okay. We spend the whole day in Mirabilandia and we went on all the rides and I laughed and screamed and it wasn't as bad considering the state I was in. In the evening I had to take some pill because my headache was killing me, but that was it.

The second day, however, was absolute and complete disaster. My head was killing me, and I swear I had a fever, so I only half enjoyed the trip to San Marino. Then we went back to Mirabilandia and I had to get medical help because at that point I thought I was going to pass out. 

They were really nice and took care of me, so that the rest of the day was bearable. 

But we still had about 6 hours drive back home and I honestly thought I'm not going to make it back home...

So it's understandable that this week I've been home, lying in bed and drinking as much tea as I could consume. 

That's about all I've been up to in the last three weeks.

What about you guys? What happened to you in the last three weeks?

People grow apart and that's okay

I've always thought of friendship as something unbreakable. For me true friendship was a bond that lasts a lifetime. A friend is someone with whom you share your experience, your pain and happiness, your darkest secrets and whatever else comes along. 

However, what I didn't realise for a long time is that sometimes people grow apart and that that's okay.

Each and everyone of us develops their personal interests during growing up and sometimes it can happen that your interests are so different from your friend's that this whole friendship thing doesn't work for the two of you anymore. 

Personally, it took me a lot of time to comprehend this and come to the realisation that loosing a good friend is something we all have to deal with at some point in our lives. Because I was in denial that my friend and I weren't what we used to be, I kept holding on to the friendship for longer than I should have. It felt like I kept trying to breath even though I was about hundred feet under the water already.

Then once our friendship was over it was that much harder for me to deal with that. I kept hoping that maybe it's just another meaningless quarrel, something we could get over, but I didn't have the will to keep fighting and that should have been my clue. I should have understood that it was better for me that the we weren't as close as we used to be because at least back then we were still talking.

I think that when someone has been in your life for such a long time it's like losing a family when things come to an end, but there is a quote that I like to repeat to myself whenever I feel like maybe things shouldn't have worked out like this. The quote goes something like: "When someone causes more tears than smiles, no matter how much you love them, it's time to let them go."

This whole post have been one long mess, so unorganised, but it something I wanted to get out for a long time. I think that now I am finally ready to admit this and write it all down. Losing a friend is something that isn't easy to deal with, but sooner you realise that there's nothing to feel guilty about, that sometimes people just grow apart and that it's nobody's fault, the better things will go for you from that point forward.

I feel like I've grown so much since that event. I've made so many good friends along the way and I am happier than I have ever been, so I really can't complain about how things have worked out for me. 

How Supernatural captured my heart

I remember saying in one of my posts that I would talk about Supernatural one day, and this day has come.

I am a big sucker for series and I've been seeing so many post about Supernatural on Tumblr and Instagram, I decided to check it out. I was absolutely thrilled to find out it has 11 season so far, because my favourite 'sport' is binge watching series. 

In two months Supernatural has managed to capture my heart completely and here are few reasons why.

1. It's the best combination of horror, fantasy, drama and humour. By humour, I mostly mean sarcastic remarks which are of course my favourite kind of humour. 

2. I love mythology which is a big part of the show. I think my love for mythology comes from my childhood when my mother used to read me stories from the greek mythology while we were in Greece for holidays. We would lay on the beach and she would read me about Hercules or Odyssey or Prometheus or other heroes, and I listened to her with my mouth opened and my imagination working like crazy. It's a great memory.

3. The brotherly love between Sam and Dean will be the death of me. It's why the whole series works so good. Because we would all like to have someone who was prepared to go to hell for us, someone who was prepared to die for us and someone who loved us so unconditionally as these two love each other. 

4. Destiel. I started ship it mainly because of the social media, to be honest, but now there's no chance in hell you'll convince me those two aren't in love. 

5. They are not perfect. I love how Sam's and Dean's decisions aren't always the right ones. No matter how hard they try to save the world and be heroes, sometimes they just mess up everything really badly and I think that makes them more relatable, more humanlike. 

6. Even though a lot of things that happen on the show are based on the Bible, it makes me happy that they include other religions, other gods and mythology from different cultures. You get to see Greek mythology, Japanese mythology, Egyptian gods etc.

7. A cast can contribute so much to the popularity of a show and the cast of Supernatural has definitely done an amazing job. They are all very likeable and willing to do almost everything for their fans, which I believe can sometimes be exhausting even though it's a big part of their job. They are also running so many campaigns to help improve people's lives that it warms my heart and makes me love them even more.

So, if you are, by any chance, looking for a new series to watch, I would recommend you try Supernatural if you haven't seen it already. And even if you have, it's never a bad idea to re-watch a series, is it?